Moving really fast through life blurs the scenery and is a clever solution to avoid pain. Some people even carry a sharp razor to slice off anything that threatens to hang on to their bumper. This is an effective road to some kinds of success. Until you either reach the end of it or the motion itself makes you ill; or both.
Then what?
We’re standing at the end of the road, with “success” in our hand but able to clearly see all the pain we’ve so effectively avoided and anything we’ve cut off along the way will soon catch up.
Where do we step next?
Standing still is an option. Listening to what we’ve avoided can help move us to the next stage, rather than creating some new blur of distraction. If we continue to treat life as some destination to success we’ll end up at the end of more roads. Allowing ourselves to see and feel what’s around us opens us to experiences connected to who we are and a less empty existence. Then we are life; a journey that is continuous.
I believe that I am proficient and self-reliant. I actually heard myself say, “I have done as much as I can on my own, I need help now.” It struck me later how this is an extraordinary arrogant and stupid statement. It assumes that everything I have accomplished and all the blessings I’ve received have nothing to do with the help of others.
what’s most important when making these choices. Intuition guides my heart and trust is a risk. Like any risk there is some exposure but also reward.
point reaching around and connecting with you at a different point in time and space. I’m sure there are scientists out there itching to correct me, but I’m okay with this understanding; it’s comforting.
My entire life I had a feeling I would be “found out.” Like I was living a secret life that belonged to someone else and one day someone would expose me and demand to know who I really am. My anxiety arose when I knew that I wouldn’t be able to tell them because I didn’t know who that ”real person” was at all.
